riding the rollers

feeling nauseous today. This medication has me in a trance, like I am being held captive in my own body. My mind is working but my muscles and bones are not functioning.

Perhaps there is really nothing physically wrong with me at all, and all of this is a result of my mind, my brain that is malfunctioning....

all tucked in

I felt like I should have been wrapped in saran wrap. My thinking is cloudy and I can barely breath in here anymore. I walk back and forth on my recently cleaned, but still grossly stained carpets and all I can bring myself to think of is when,. a date, the time, a day, when I did not feel like a 200lb conch...

judo...everyone is sucked into the lie but me...that is the rule of thumb. hostile work enviroment. job pipline knocked out in full force. cross me and i will watch you cry as you fall off a bridge. public service...the grim reaper of karma...
Fantasia, eat the mfo alive...
A. purchase...
B. unstrategic, and unprofessional,
C. calling in the airstrike is that they don't know
D. the reason I need the query access is to do exactly what you asked me to do...
E. "don't be a wise ass."
F. Judo Judo

I love the smell of Napalm in the morning

there is something to be said for ignorance. it sort of envelopes you in this veil of protection, if I were any wiser I would play dumb unfortunilty then that would mean that I would get stuck trying to figure out my own mess. which may more often than not, be the case in which I am oftern presented. The reality of my situation is that I work for a person, who shall remain nameless until I think of a good name for her, that enjoys her postion of power. So much so that her sarcasum comes across as berating and her humor as insults. She laughs at her colleagues decisions and takes a no holds barred stand on letting other people know that she is right and in charge.
She is a lousy dresser, I have yet to see her wear a skirt, which says a lot in my eyes and has never been seen with something femine drapped across her body. Her choice of vocabulary is tailored and while she tries to stray from her roots, words of slang drip from her lips like hot syrup from a fork during your most memorable pancake meal.

this is the place to track all that we are made of, the real deal the stuff that breaths inside of us.